About Me - - wierd right !?

Hey i m lareta (fake name) my real name is Athena i wish i had a name like lareta though and of course i'm Emo/Goth but my parents don't know that, and although i don't or really can't wear black i'm still gothic because it doesn't matter how you dress it really matters about how you act, your thoughts, etc. i'm a good acter because i fool my parents that i'm a tomboy or even girly-girl (ew~ so~ disgusting).
I don't believe in love and probably never will (who knows). Although i'm gothic i still watch anime i need one part of my life staying on the bright side for my parents. Yes gothics cry to, although i don't beleive in love i beleive in family love and i cry when my parents don't show it (i don't know why when i already know that they love me--but at same time i don't think so).
Every day i wear long sleeves so that my parents won't see the cuts i make. i'm not a full blooded Emo though because my cuts don't turn into scars, but my friend boyfriend is, cause when he showed us his arms i saw O D scars that are so~ deep it's cool, but at same time to some peoples it would be disturbing. my life is so~ hard because i'm hiding my true identity from my parents and currently don't feel bad about it.